Those were the times

Im feeling very pregnant today. As in tired, heavy and to be honest, boring. So i needed a little look back to the times when i was fun.

Awesome night for Canemans hen do. After ski theme and we went bananas on Sannas mums old bronzing powder.

Secret Cinema 20s style.

Pirate themed work party at Unibet. Only way to fight the seasick was to get drunk. Worked like a charm.

First year Burning Man. I know you guys are tired of hearing of this but i get jealous every time around this year seeing my fellow pixies in the desert.

Another BM. 8 in the morning at Bubbles and Bass after a long night at Robot Heart. This is what  its all about.

Halloween is my jam man. Dress up and goth. Need to figure out what to paint the belly as this year.

Young and pretty (?). Trash can Santa (and yes, Sanna and Filippa seem to be my wingwomen in most of these. Fellow lovers of a good dress up party)

More desert because who doesnt love the desert. Cant believe Dani and me are both having boys.

How i miss glowsticks. And yes, i know, i can still wear them but its simply not the same.

Maybe its time for another Secret Cinema. Best excuse to dress up and you dont actually have to be drunk to get away with it.

Summer mornings. One day ill be face covered in glitter having danced through the night again fuelled by redbull.

Send me to the beer tent someone please.

Not even 30. Those were the days. Young and dumb in your 20s. And definitely fitter than right now.

Unicorns! Because this is what they really look like. No rainbows and shit, just pure magic.

The pre party, dress up drinking excitement.

Wrapped up in a whip with some seriously hot girls. Yes.

This was last year. Still fun. A couple of years now of being just a mum and then ill be back to crazy outfits and glitter. Just watch me.

A letter to you

You are kicking away in there. In the evenings, in the middle of the night. Whenever i try to chill out, whenever i try to sleep. Strong legs. Lots of energy. Constantly reminding me you are there.

I wonder so who you are. Im rewatching One Tree Hill and the main character is called Lucas and is a basketball playing book lover. It feels serendipitous. Like thats how you could end up if you took the passions from your mum and your dad.

I hope you will be kind. Respectful to everyone. Caring. I dont really want anything from you other than kindness. And an openess to all kinds of people. You will grow up with blood from three nations and roots from all over the world. I hope that makes you curious and open.

I hope i can give you the feeling of love, security and non judgment. I will love you whoever you are. I already do. Whatever you choose to do in your life ill stand by your side and i cant wait to get to know the people you surround yourself with. If there is one thing i have learned from your dad is that there is goodness in everyone if you give them a chance.

I already love you but i cant wait to LOVE you. For who you are. For your good and your bads. For the things that make me yell at you and for the things that make me hug you. For the things that remind me of me or your dad and for the things that are only you.

Me and your dad are busy figuring out what to name you. I might seem easy and once you are you there could be no other way but there is power in a name. And I want you to grow up in the knowledge that you have the power to be whoever you want to be.

Less than 5 months until we get to meet you. Until then ill keep loving those kicks that keep me up at night and live through the very annoying backache that will eventually give me you.

Little raver boy

My back is killing me today. Must have slept funny because kind of have to like half lean back to get in position. Good thing im working from home. Off to Paris tomorrow though so hoping itll be better by then.

Other than that. Its Monday and 13 degrees. Absolutely loving it. The weather, not necessarily the monday part. George is in Finland and W and me have the house to ourselves. Feel like thats all we do these days. Move our grey asses around the sofa for hours.

Starting to feel a bit lonely here. George is out a lot of the time and i just dont have that many people around any longer. And the trek to East with belly and doggo is a bit of a schlep. And soon Katta is going back to Sweden. Im going to have to go on some mama dates or something before i go stir crazy.

Ah, the times when one was still fun.

On Friday Sophie came to the office. This is her photo face.

Dancing away in the office. She is such a little cutie.

And here is our cutie. Little baby boy 20 weeks old.

Let put those hands in the air!

On Saturday Ben and Laura were in town and we went to Gloria for her bday. Happy gang getting ready for some party times.

Happy birthday gorgeous.

I headed home to W after lunch and the others stayed out. Love hurts when youve left your dog for 5 hours. Hed also been sick all over the flat. Poor boy.

George was hungover and slept on Sunday morning (lunch time to be honest) and W and me took a pretty autumn walk. Its definitely getting chillier.

Then i made a whole batch of chcolate balls i downed in 2 hours. Viva pregnancy. We also nailed almost the whole first season of Dark. So damn good.

And, this was us the rest of the weekend. Chillers.

Candy never lies


Yes, its correct. Candy never lies and its a little baby boy in there in my belly. Hello little one.

For the ultra sound today everything looked perfect and he held his own little hand hiding his face. Too cute to handle. But we managed to get all the data they needed and all is looking good. Cant believe we are meeting our little boy in less than 5 months.

No more ultra sounds, from now on its just blood test and measuring the belly at the GP and midwife. The baby was laying feet down now but hes moving around like a little monster so that will most likely change. So now there is nothing but planning, enjoying the little kicks and chilling until next appointment in 5 weeks.

Im feeling quite emotional today. It felt so real seeing everything and hes becoming a little person. We are really becoming parents. Like for real. Its not a joke. We need to take care of a human.

Katta came over last night and we ate gumbo and watched a romantic movie. Plus blanket and candle weather. W just wanted to play. Too bad mama is all tired and big these days.

Tonight we are taking it easy at home and tomorrow we are seeing Ben and Laura that are on their honeymoon traveling around Europe.


Lovely night at Stillwater last night. My sentimental man wanted to celebrate his 4th anniversary in London (yes, he keeps celebrating each and every one of them). It was a bit of a crowd and all the favourite faces. Plus. Gumbo! They had made a whole roasted suckling pig as well but i mean, come on, Gumbo!!

Everyone got drunk since the food didnt show up until like 11. Except me. I didnt drink but better than that, i ordered my food before everyone and happily munched away at 8. Points to the preggers lady.

Got a lot of love from everyone and Phil and Jenny gave us some awesome nerdy onesies. This baby will be the best dressed baby every. In nerd.

Tonight Katta comes over for Gumbo. Yes, like a pro i made sure to get some extra portions to bring home with me. George is away so getting some catch up time with the kittekat.

Mmmm…Gumbo. It never looks pretty but it tastes like a dream.

Crowd. Not only Georges friends but an industry legend having his bday as well so the place was filled to the rafters.

Havent seen Tye and Rupali in ages. Love those two. And yes, George was a little sweaty monster all night. Hes just been told he needs to eat gluten for two weeks for the investigation the NHS is doing into his health so he was one happy boyo. Gluten party for him.

Nursery plans

Starting to find it really hard with clothes. My whole idea of wearing normal clothes is just not going to fly, the belly make all my tops super short and jeans is a no go. And even if i love my belly and dont think my colleagues wants to see it on a regular basis…

We are also done planning the nursery. As in our room :). For the first 6 months the baby will sleep with us and then we’ll see how it goes. So we are fitting it all in with us. I havent bought anything but i have it pretty much planned out.

The pram will be a Babyzen Yoyo with the newborn pack. Its perfect for traveling and since we are planning on going away for about 2 months in the first 6 months that suits us perfectly. This is by far the most expensive buy but after having talked to people getting a new one with warranty is worth it.


Since our room is getting a bit cluttered we are getting the smallest cot we could find. Its from 0-12 months and will set us up until potential swede move. The plan was to  get a bed from my colleague but its too big. This one is just under 1m and will fit well in the room. Super simple but we need nothing fancy.


These are the main things. Changing will be on the bed, we are getting a baby nest for our bed and we are waiting with a chair for eating until later. And ill most likely wish for a babysitter and a playmat for Christmas.

Loving this one from Amazon. Apparently the newborns love the black and white since they can make that out first before colours.


We are pretty ready for the little ones arrival. I will set the delivery of the cot and pram for December and we can spend Christmas break getting everything in order.

We have already been given some gifts and we have quite a lot of newborn clothes now so if im to buy anything else it will be from 3 months. I mean, its seriously hard to keep from nesting. Ive been waiting for this day forever and now that its finally here i want  to buy ALL the cute clothes.

Be strong Cissi, be strong.

Half baked

Me and Jellybean are halfway today. 20 more weeks to go. Jellybean celebrated that by having a little rave in my stomach last night. Tap, tap, tap on my belly.

This week things are back to normal. I wear jeans and a t-shirt and dont want to die from the heat. Dream. The french are all back from work. Nightmare. Tomorrow its Georges 4 year in London anniversary and we are going for dinner at Stillwater. I want to inhale some of that gumbo. My biggest sorrow at the moment is that i cant eat big portions any longer. Doggy bags is a ladies best friend.

We got our first Hello fresh recipe box yesterday. 3 full dinners with all ingredients with gluten free options for £30. Feels reasonable. Plus, with my reduced portion sizes it actually lasted for two meals for me.

I cooked away and made this sausage meat ragu. Delicious. George was out so dinner for one but the sauce will wait for him until his hungover ass wants food today.

Halfway belly. This is one of my maternity/nursing tops from Seraphine. Loving that it covers the belly but still make me feel like a normal person.


Everything is starting to feel very real. I can feel the little munchkin move around and I’m getting bigger and bigger. After the scan on Friday I will order our pram and cot etc for delivery just before Christmas so that we can get the room ready.

It’s crazy, it’s kicking just as I’m writing this. Super cool feeling. My baby! I’m not particularly sentimental but even I get a little teary eyed from this.

Had a lovely weekend. Stayed home on Friday and on Saturday went to East for bday drinks.

W was not entirely convinced but was a little champ coming with us for dinner in Soho with Bella and Alex and a drink at Mimis. Party doggo.

On Sunday took a long walk with Katta. The ice cream man gave W his very own ice cream for free. Sweet but dangerous given the farts that follow. So he got a little bit. Sorry W but no full ice cream for you.

Then Amelia, Mikey, Oscar and baby Fifi came over. Such a little angel. I was the baby whisperer and put her to sleep which would have been great if they didn’t need her to stay up. Soz.

Today I’m in bed. Couldn’t sleep last night since my stomach was so bad and feeling not too hot in general so staying home.